Alan Quill is a writer, though often at a loss for words. What, if anything, can give a young man with a creative heart the strength to overcome a world of utility? The answer, like many others, isn't so easily found - which we find as we follow Alan through his struggles and discoveries, facing the pitfalls of addiction, depression, obsession, love, loss, and disillusion. So, we go with Alan on a journey through his life - or the moments of significance therein - where he leaves the safety of his suburban home in Colorado to pursue what he hopes will be a more fulfilling life in New York. Of course, with a new location comes new challenges, new pleasures, and a girl. Every new thing presents an opportunity to find the meaning Alan so desperately seeks, but where will it all lead? What really matters?